dito tayo sa dilim

Dreaming of a complete stranger telling you upfront that she hates you is bad. How about dreaming of someone you know that hates you telling you upfront that she hates you? Terribly ill. No matter how much I tell myself that I can't please everyone, it still drives me insane that some people just don't find me likeable.. at all. The more the pain when they don't like you for a friend for some apparent reason. In the past I did not care of being liked. It was never a big predicament for me. I just went on with my life thinking that oh yeah shit happens and its a natural phase in everybody's life. However at this time, being accepted and liked is all what matters to me. I want them to be so pleased with me, if not, just be pleased enough to like me for their friend. I need them to see a good side of me. I have committed so many mistakes in the past. I was a total bitch to their friend. I have changed and so is she. We became better (not bitter, mind you). Then again what can I do but just write about it and convince myself again and again that I can never please them.

I guess being liked is a tough job for a tough bitch like me. Hehe.